Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right-doing,
there is a field. I'll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase "each other" doesn't make any sense.

- Rumi


Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Identifying and Enacting an Epic Woman


“Woman is the companion of man, gifted with equal capacities. By sheer force of vicious custom, even the most ignorant and worthless men have been enjoying a superiority over women which they don’t deserve and ought not to have.”
- Mahathma Gandhi





                                      
The interpretation of epic characters has at all times been the fond interest of artists associated with all forms of expressions. The relevance of such associations is needless to question because of the foresight and depth of the epics upon which their modern interpretations are based. Be it the case of the caste based humiliation faced by Karna or the politics of war between Rama and Ravana, or the lament of Duryodhana, every instance in the epic texts can be given a contemporary colour and linked to the lives of the people we see around us today, ages ahead of the timeline during which the epic characters are believed to have lived. As against the generality of this observation, the case seems to get more complicated and confusing when it comes to making contemporary interpretations of the female characters of the epics. The deep rooted societal archetypes with respect to the notions of femininity add multiple layers to the fabric of the characters of epic women. Hence, understanding them and placing them into the contemporary scene becomes difficult but at the same time very intriguing.
Among the prominent women of the Mahabharata, Draupadi, the daughter of the Drupada king is an almost ideal example of the contemporary Indian womanhood. She is believed to have been born as an adult from a holy pyre, and, according to the text, the purpose of her birth was to initiate the final war between the Pandavas and Kauravas.  Draupadi is a largely misunderstood and misinterpreted woman of the Mahabharatha. She is pictured as the voluptuous woman who gave in to all the 5 Pandava brothers and lived the life of a dignified, married, whore. The assumption that a woman who had to yield sexually to 5 different men with 5 distinct needs is a vamp who enjoyed such a fate is the starting point where my interest in understanding the character germinated. I was intrigued by the image of that of a royal whore which is attached to Draupadi, who was publically disrobed and humiliated in the open court of the Kauravas. It seemed paradoxical to me that a woman who had undergone such suffering is alleged to have enjoyed it all and, in fact, brought it upon herself by choice. It was from this feeling of curiosity and empathy that the investigation into the character, and, the social and moral circumstances of women in general began in my mind.



  • ·Draupadi – My first thoughts
It was the English translation of the Oriya novel ‘Yajnaseni’ by Dr. Pratibha Rai that threw significant light into the episodes of the life of Draupadi for me. I was in high school back then when I first read it upon the suggestion made to me by my father. The book interprets the episodes of the Mahabharatha from Draupadi’s perspective and brings out effectively the plethora of issues she faces as a woman and as the wife of the Pandava brothers. Upon the first reading itself a feeling of self identification took over and my mind immediately raced to the possibilities of presenting Draupadi as a representative of Indian womanhood through my vocabulary of expression, i.e. theatre.
I was certain that Draupadi’s story definitely can be placed into the lives of almost all women around the globe but the thought was too general and vague. It had to be condensed and transformed into episodes that can be theatrically represented and woven together as a story that makes sense.

Over the next few years, I made deliberate efforts to read and re-read books about Draupadi as well as about women in general to mould my thoughts into concrete shape. ‘Ini Njan Urangatte’, ‘The Second Sex’, ‘Lady Chatterley’s Lover’, ‘Love in the Time of Cholera’ and a number of various other books came across my horizon of reading and after every book I collected some significant observation about the lives of women. The insight gained from many cult classic movies that I happened to watch was also very vital to the fixation of my own convictions about women in general.



  • The task of becoming her
During my investigations into Draupadi and as an effect of my general reading experiences, I realised that the first thing I needed to build was conviction. I had to identify and confirm my own personal stand about the plight of women before I could perform the same using Draupadi as a medium. This, to me, was the most difficult and confusing phase. I was barely 19 years old and I sometimes found myself totally lost in the middle of the information I got from the books I came across and the observations I made around myself. There were times when I felt I could never feel stable about my changing thoughts and even decided to stop thinking and give it all up. That was when I got help from my mentor in theatre Professor Chandradasan. With his help I would try to sort my mind and put things into better perspective.
Slowly I started preparing myself to feel Draupadi and relate her to my own life though my real life experiences are not as intense as her’s.

My efforts and thoughts were taken to a higher level when I was chosen to portray ‘Janaki’, in the Malayalam play ‘Abhayarthikal’, written by the learned G.Shankara Pillai. The play is believed to be the Indian version of the famous Scandinavian play ‘The Dolls House’, written by Henrik Yohan Ibsen. The Ibsenic influence caught me and I read other plays written by him. I was introduced to a style of playwriting which made me feel a sense of solidarity for the portrayal of human emotions with a stoical expressiveness that penetrated deep into the conscience of the reader.
The performance of the play instilled in me the confidence that my thought process was on the right track and that my Draupadi would certainly communicate to the present day women.
Slowly and steadily, the woman in me began to shed all ornamental notions administered to me by my surrounding society and think independently and address issues of women from a humane perspective. It was during this phase that I realised how hard-hitting the similarities between Draupadi and every other woman of this era is.
Each time I went out or travelled and experienced the male gaze molest me, I would think about Draupadi  on the day of her wedding when she was suffocated by eyes of men who had gathered to win her over in the swayamvara. Each time I saw how political games affected women and children the most, my mind would travel to the episode where Draupadi laments the incidence of the Kurukshethra war and its pointlessness.
Each time I would act a certain way to survive my day, my thoughts would go back to the identity crisis Draupadi faced. She was the shadow of every man she was with and never had the opportunity to be herself.
Above all, each time I experienced a sense of loneliness and emotional turmoil I would sit back and think of how needy a woman Draupadi was and how deprived of companionship she might have been, even in the abundance of marital partners and societal status as a queen.
My doubts had all gradually ceased to emerge and I was ideologically and emotionally sure of what I wanted to portray through Draupadi.
My mind had reached a consensus finally.



  •  The process of converting ideas into performance
After I made myself emotionally sure of how I wanted my Draupadi to think and feel, the next and the major challenge was to build a definite storyline and convert the thoughts into gestures and actions that can be performed theatrically. After repeated discussions with Professor Chandradasan, we devised a body language and structure of performance for Draupadi.
We decided to use a semi stylised pattern of acting. The emotional scenes were decided to be performed using a realistic style of acting whereas for the other areas we choose to rely on forms like Kalari Payattu, Kathakali, Chau and Kathak. This hybrid, we felt, was the most suitable to depict our theme. To aid in the process of storytelling, Professor Chandradasan also brought in paintings and decided to use them to give more insight into the fabric of the play.
In the middle of building the play, I happened to have an opportunity to play ‘Mandodhari’ in C.N.Srikandhan Nair’s ‘Lankalakshmi’. The experience further empowered me emotionally and equipped me physically as it exposed me to the culture of traditional, physical theatre. The self sufficiency of Mandodhari and her sense of resilience helped me mould my Draupadi better.


Finally, on August 20, 2012 the play was staged at the Changampuzha Park, Edapally. The journey of being and analysing Draupadi continues in my conscience even after the performance. My Draupadi is a woman of deep understanding and intelligence. The fact that distinguishes her from the other women of the Mahabharatha is that she was very well aware of her circumstances. She was never an all-suffering woman who did not rebel against the decisions about her life which were made by other people on her behalf. Neither did she owe everything to fate like any other conventional Indian woman. She choose to keep silent and go through whatever came her way with the full knowledge that it was unjust and that she deserved better than what she got. Even when she rebelled against the odds in her own individual ways, she was also not all that empowered to break out of the constraints and abandon the people who she believed were her family. She found solace in her evergreen lover Krishna whom she considered as the epitome of an ideal lover. She confided in him and dreamt of him and those were the only moments of consolation Draupadi ever experienced during the entire span of her life.
This is where she becomes the representative of the contemporary Indian woman who is not only educated and aware but also tied into the archetypes of family and morality fed into her head by the collective conscience of her roots.
She thus is an apt tool which can be used to draw relevant analogies with the lives of the modern day Indian women. The underlying feeling of agony and the longing to break free and also the inability to shake off the shackles of social conditionings that Draupadi went through is the very same feeling of being burdened that almost every normal Indian woman faces today.
In that sense, Draupadi is even today, a character that gives scope for interpretations of various kinds and dimensions.



As published in the Kulashekara Festival Souvenir 2013) 

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