My Dark Hole,
You slimy middle one,
You have decided my life since birth,
Its you who has conditioned me,
My instincts are at your beck and call,
My schedules are altered to protect you,
My ambitions are structured considering your safety,
My relationships are based on your availability,
Its you that is noticed and not me,
And I am made to feel I am in you rather than you being in me,
I get a feeling of filth when I sense the secret gazes on you,
Sometimes I just want to stitch up your walls so that I can find peace,
When the garbage of realisation accumulates in my soul
I get angry and I hurt you,
I make you bleed,
When you bleed,you push me into a shithole of emotions for no reasons,
The world has still not been able to define you,
It rather defines me in relation to you,
And in that narrow definition my self is murdered heniously,
Neglected is my pride,my mirth, my existence.
I try to shut my ears and blind myself to escape the feeling of vulnerability,
But your presence in me will always make me porous.
I know I am coveted only because I have you,
But I wont let you be happy or feel good,
I wont let slitherers to slip into you,
Thats my revenge to the one who has placed you in me
Because my life is the price you make me pay for carrying you in me!
5 comments:
I actually was fighting with my girlfriend last week, for some decisions she took to make her happy...
Some times i consider myself as 'post-gendered'.. kinda gender sensitivity is accumulat-ed inside my brain... This is just a confession from the unknown zone..
For each fight she was paying her freedom, her right to be in happiness..
ur last line of this poem endorses it with all its detailing..
Let me say... Great Job
-Sib
thanks for understanding what i wrote in its right sense.. this is the first positive review tht i am getting for this piece....almost all who read it said its crass and sick! nd yes,let ur gurlfriend live :) love dosent create bonds,let it flow freely between the shores of ur souls :)
thanks for understanding what i wrote in its right sense.. this is the first positive review tht i am getting for this piece....almost all who read it said its crass and sick! nd yes,let ur gurlfriend live :) love dosent create bonds,let it flow freely between the shores of ur souls :)
I was seeing movie called Feast Of Love.. It says.. u hav to open ur eyes while u r in love.. WHts that means!!
Some times We feel.. we shouldnt be so un-spicy and casual in relationships.. Then wts spice? who knows!!
Some time we get vibes that the lover expect a kinda strong string from our side.. Is it string or kinda bond. or wt else!!
In few occasions we think.. We shouldnt be so generous to give such support to all wt the lover do.. bsz, always the lover think, our concent is the last word!
I dont know whether is leads to loosen that relationship for ever or not..
Hey its not a confusion of a guy who generally be in relationship.. or want to let the lover stay with us for long.. .
I dont know.. I confuse being in a new thing called relationship!! (PS: Here all those we, us can be considered as I, me) - Sib
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